Ramblings...Thoughts...Views...Perspectives...

Clp sooon

2008-09-16T16:04:00.000-07:00

Gooood morning....Ever had those days whereby you worry so much...knowing so much that such worry is pointless....hmnnn its 6 in the morning and here i am with these sort of feelings. Actually, I do have some reasons to be worried...if im not wrong, my bar exam results are due sometime later today or tomorrow...aiyaiyai...just before i head off for a holiday...yiaksss..it comes out...shiat...so thats why im so worried. I can barely sleeepp....but then , im such a walking contradiction ...i ask God to let his will be done, if i fail im not going to feel bad and move on... but then another part of me questions..Shiat why should i fail, its funny how getting 40 marks has become SO BLARDY DIFFICULT! Well...i guess im not the only one who is pissed at the current judiciary and the way it regulates law graduates.....there are heaps of people like me....only one term.. “DISCONTENT!!” okiee..heading of to work:P scarrry day ahead....but blah!

Siberian Husky!

2008-09-16T09:18:00.000-07:00

THE DAD!!!

beautiful Eyesssss.....

BUTT THEN....sooo cute but decided not to buy her...cause circumstances do not permit!!Ala....

So Much in a day...

2008-09-15T01:14:00.000-07:00

Aha…Im FULL..just had lunch..shiat…its always the case..when u go to work in the morning…you put on ur shirt and u zip ur skirt…and say “Thank god it zipsss”…and u feel pretty happy about it...especially after a long weekend of eating like a cow. And then..lunch comes..*ta da*…after lunch..Shiat… u need to suck in ur stomach a little.. Skirt somehow feels much tighter or whats worst is that u stain ur white shirt!bla bla….!!! Haih..its always the case…weight gain somehow seems SO SUPER much easier than weight loss…but then again, think about it there’s more to life about being so Thin but not savouring sumptious food! (trying to convince myself to feel good about myself) .nvm la..as I always say..ONLY LIVE ONCE….eat and be happy forget about your worriesJ ….

Another thing! I finally overcomed the Traffic jam “sien” mode and have succumbed to accepting it as an everyday part of life. It’s not toooooo bad after all ya know!. I left for work at 7.15 today telling myself “I AM NOT GOING TO BE LATE”..ala…then..Traffic steps in and I only reached work at 9am…apa la:P but its OKAY!!!…..My Car’s filled with all sorts of nonsense to entertain me..I’ve got some pretty decent reading material to “feel good” about…I put them there to fill in my “Just in case” sudden urge to Read something to add on to my knowledge…Lina Joy’s…Subashini revisited…company law..limits and guarantees, capital markets…ahhh all there. So far, still have alot of UNREAD material in the car… Then, there’s bread for breakfast…then there’s the constant annoyance from JJ and Rudy…then there’s the cd that I play again and again and still love all the songs in it! Then comes a time where I switch radio chanels …hopefully J.Mraz’s “I’m your’s” plays!! Then I get all excited in the car… I have no idea why after so long now I am super addicted to that song!!! Just lifts up ya dayyy not sure why tooJ But good la!(FORTUNATELY…yesterday on the way back I heard it twice..this morning ONCE!) And most of all, I think traffic gives me time to think about almost Everything! Talk to God…start my neverending complains, reviews, hopes, expectations, wants, needs, desires……then say forgive me for I know not what im doing…and then continuing ranting. I THINK…If I were God I’d have a headache just listening to me. But nvm nvm…he’s still listeningJ So yap!id continue ranting!!

Yesterday was Mooncake Festival..BUT, I did nothing associated with mooncake at ALL! Got back from Taiping in the evening and went to Wei Wern’s Dad’s Dog Farm(WWDDF)…it was some sorta of a Puppy mill! Ala..if my dad owned one of them, id go crazy…will post up some photos of the pups I saw soon.(can’t do that now, supposed to be WORKING) muahhahaha…..all sorts of dogs, u name it..he’s kinda got it! His Labradors, retrievers, German Shepard, Husky’s, pugs…don’t know which wan to look at…ala I so wanted to pick wan…but I guess u know and I know..CANNNOT ler..id be chopped! But ct’s mum is interested in a Siberian husky, so we looked at one..will post up her pic, absolutely BEAUTIFUL. .. Have I ever told you that I seriously love BIG BIG dogs!...its the truth!

Hmnn…. Then Mr Tong won some dollars the day before so we went to celebrate!!! Eating Zanmai…*ttututu*…awesome…but expensive shiat… it’s madness how we’re always celebrating we also dunno wert. That’s why we’re never rich..slave to food..forever poor..because of it! Sometimes we are kiamsiap…dun wan to buy this.. save money on that..When it comes to Food, we came up with this notion that we would only spend money on food when we are “celebrating” special occasions…then tada…we’ve been celebrating almost every weekend I think…the only thing that’s missing is the “Special Occasion!”Sampat:P:P Thereafter, watched Death Race.. YOU must watch it!! Cars screwed the woman…I mean literally Screwed the woman…gruesome yucks!!!.action pack all the way…!! Twas a Good Day!:)

It’s now.. Monday at work….ALMOST over…Tuesday sooon…and then BALI holidays SOOONER!:)

Saying Goodbye...

2008-09-13T09:35:00.000-07:00

I haven’t been ranting for a long time now..but all of a sudden I just have this urge to write a little something. Nothing much to do in Taiping but to sit down and ponder! Life’s been alright ever since I’ve last written, but some things have indeed taken a twist…some for the better others for the worst…

Anywaysss yesterday I had to say Goodbye..AGAIN….and did I ever tell you that I so HATE to say goodbyesss…my cousin sis left for the UK to complete her final year in law. Which is GOODNEWS I know…..but watching her leave just makes me feel like crying…its so hard to say goodbye. But I know…let it go…she’s going to a new place new opportunity new city altogether. its both exciting and scarry for her. But I felt like a part of me was bleeding. Not that I live with her or talk to her alllll the time, but its just that it suddenly hit me that this part of family seems so farfetched..But I know I know…she’s going to be fine, everythings going to be allright and in no time she’d do well and comeback and become all that she wants to be! But know what…convince myself all that I want…I still HATE GOODBYES~ eikkkssss:P

I’ve been coming back to Taiping kinda often these days… kinda tiring, but i guess its brought about family time. I enjoy the journey back the fellowship that i have with andrew, mum and dad...just to catch up a little exchange views...and share toughts! It's nice ...now that we're all grown up and during the weekends everyone's so caught up with their everyday lives..that we seldom interact...so the journey home's reallly uplifting...

hmnn haih but then the reason why we've constantly been travelling is because cancer took its place again…this time around my Grandma's diagnosed with stomach cancer... sad but learning to accept. We’ve decided to only conduct pain management. Which is a better option as she has gone into the final stages of it and there’s more to life than putting her thru Chemo, rather spend every weekend going out for dinner and staying home.

From being a super outspoken lady, she's now become all mellow, not because she’s relaxed but more so because she just doesn’t seem to have anything left inside her body. She doesn’t seem comfortable. Her body's trying hard to fight against the iritating cancer cells by itself...and that is definitely tiring and slowing her immune system. Cancer, the silent killer. but its good that her pain killers work and she doesn’t feel pain. Praise God for that! I only wish that when she leaves us she’d come to know The God that I know and she’d go to some place better in a simplier way….no more pain…all’s at peace.

This weekend was nice, she was having one of her goood days, we went out for dinner and she ate more than ever, but we're all abit worried tooo at the same time as my cousin left fo UK, and much of my grandma feels that she won't be able to see her again...so difficult to take it all in at one time i guess, but wert to do..life's like that, be strong...we must move on..continue our journey...

Hmnnn but Im not complaining:) …I know I know! It’s sometimes so easy to look at the things that go wrong in our lives and compare them with the things that go right in other people’s lives and to sit and curse awhile. Its easy, but I still don’t really belief in doing it thou. There’s more than meets the eye. …Life’s goood if you choose to be happy. Im sure everyone’s going thru private pains. Not all things will go our way..but so what…at least some sure did…and those that did not, ahhh it went senget for the better!

There's so much that i want to rant about...heehehe will do it late! :)